Friday, September 28, 2007
Thursday, September 27, 2007
A couple of days ago, I spoke online with a friend of mine from high school. She's going into her senior year in English, she's a leader in her sorority, is taking the LSAT on Saturday, and etc. She was always a great friend and I was excited to see that she was online so I could chat with her. The conversation, though, was... strained.
I've been noticing this in general lately. It seems like that since I've been married and now I'm expecting, that my friends from back at home don't seem to know how to talk with me. I know it's different, but I don't know how (or if) I can make it easier on them. I think the real issue is that they don't know what to talk about. I can kind of understand that, especially with this hypothetical conversation:
Friend: Ugh. There's this boy. I can't tell if he likes me or not. He's lives down the hall from me, but his signals are so mixed, you know?
Me: Yeah... I remember those days... Well, I know my husband likes me...
Ok. That's not how it'd actually go, but I'm sure that's what they're afraid of. Plus, once you're married, your life becomes less interesting. Sure neither me nor my friends don't know what we did Friday night, but that's because they were at some random party and I was... well... it was like any other night. I probably knitted and McKay did homework.
So I was sitting around feeling sorry for myself that my friends don't contact me any more, and then I decided to go to Enrichment. I'm so glad that they email us about Enrichment! It was great. We canned applesauce! And all the women there I knew and understood. Most of them are mothers of young children; I was the only one there without kids yet. They're talking about teething and solid foods and playgroups and breastfeeding. While I can't entirely relate (yet), it was really nice to have conversation with women that weren't weirded out by my marital status.
And then! It gets better! If the secretary calls me back today, I'll have a ticket to the Relief Society Conference this weekend. I'll probably carpool with Sister E. and Sister P., both of whom are at least 15 years older than I am, but we get along great. I love them!
So, although I can't chat about how so-and-so's dating so-and-so and how it's not fair, I can find a place for myself in Relief Society. Oh man. Relief Society is the bomb.
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
So yeah. I haven't been feeling very well the past two days. Yesterday's demise was due to a migraine. I haven't had one in about a year, but boy, do I know how to recognize it coming on! I spend the afternoon sleeping it off. Today I woke up with this terrible kink in my back that causes my stomach to hurt. I've had this before and it's just due to how I sleep in the bed. It'll take a few days to wear off, but gosh! My stomach will tighten up every so often because of it. I should probably see a chiropractor or something, except that I don't really trust my spine to strangers. It's my spine! I need that to... move. McKay suggested yoga. Stretching wouldn't hurt it, I guess.
But besides that, work's been going great and I've done lots of knitting (of which I need pictures so I can post them on infiKnity). I just wanted you all to know that I'm still alive, though.
Friday, September 21, 2007
So this week was interesting. On Wednesday, I went to Colorado and met Laura Shanley, author of Unassisted Childbirth. That was a long day, flew Denver in the morning, took the bus to Boulder, hung out in the afternoon, flew back in the evening. The only thing I paid for all day was the meal in the plane for dinner and the parking at the SLC airport.
Oh the airport! So I got "randomly selected" both times on Wednesday and you won't believe how fun that is nowadays. I guess people complained about how boring it is to be searched, that they created this fun new devices: air puff machines!
Now this is airport security at its best. "Stand still," they say as I'm buckling over with laughter. Your hair flies everywhere and it almost tickles! When I got "randomly selected" the second time, the lady in front of me waiting for her turn in the air puffer was a little wary. I told her not to worry and it'd be fun.
And afterwards, she admitted, I was right! If you never get a chance in one of those machines, you are missing out on the greatest government-enforced machine of all time. Good job, TSA!
The UC gathering was fun. I got interviewed for a documentary and I got free food and juice. The best part was meeting this one girl named Heather who is 38 weeks pregnant with her second. We really hit it off. She had some false labor last weekend, but is (as far as I know) still going strong!
Laura Shanley offered me one of her books, but I didn't have our checkbook and so I didn't want to take a book without paying for it. I should have, though, and sent her the check later. I could have gotten a signed copy! Sheesh.
Anyway, since then, I've caught up on my sleep and the house is more clean than it usually is by this time in the week.
And if anyone feels like getting outraged, check out this article. If that's not an attack on society, I don't know what is. I'm glad my marriage is eternal.
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
I've always believed that there is hope for you, but sometimes you do amazing things and PROVE to me that there is hope. Today a young man that I went to school with in elementary, middle, and high school sent me a message apologizing for how he treated me in middle school. Frankly, I don't remember a single thing he did. I know that I got made fun of and that school became unbearable to me because of it, but I don't remember his direct part in all that. Anyway, I can't believe he apologized. It was very nice of him to do that. And it just tickled me! And here's why:
My little brother, who's 10, has been having problems at school with some kids picking on him. The picking on him is actually pretty extreme- probably worse than I ever had it (and I had it pretty bad). Anyway, I was discussing with McKay how children treat each other. If I had been a bully llike the kids Jared has to deal with, I'd feel terrible as a person, especially as an adult looking back on what I had done. I then asked McKay, "Do you think they'll ever look back and realize what they did? Do you think they'd regret it or apologize?"
McKay responded, "No."
I followed up with a, "Yeah, probably not."
And then 2 days later, I get a message from one of the people who had done that to me, apologizing and trying to make amends. So maybe we were wrong and that, someday, the children who bully my brother will apologize.
Maybe. Well, it's possible.
Monday, September 17, 2007
So I'm not going to post this until I get home, but it's my lunch hour at work. We did the regular weekend things this weekend: go out for pizza and rent movies on Saturday night, go to church on Sunday. It was nice to just have a regular weekend, though.
Oh, but at Blockbuster, we had an interesting adventure. I really wanted to see a Bob Hope film, but couldn't find any except for Princess and the Pirate, which I've seen already. I decided to end up with Johnny Dangerously, which like any spoof, is funny and great except for those couple of sex-related humor parts. Anyway, then it was McKay's turn to pick a movie. Quiz time! Which movie did McKay pick?
A) Lady in the Water
B) Kate and Leopold
C) Bourne Supremacy
Well, if you picked B, you were correct.
What the jibblies? I pick a guy movie and McKay picks a chick flick? Yes, my friends, yes.
During the sappy parts, I was booing and everything. McKay was, "shh!"
But I love him. I was able to get some knitting done during the movie, at least. I frogged out a project and started it over. Lots of progress.
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
Wow my second post today! McKay just signed up for a new class that's 7-10 on Wednesdays and I just got the Internet, so I'm going to use his class time as my blog time.
Life as a Mama posted eleventy-one things about herself at her eleventy-oneth post. I guess it's blog tradition to post 100 things about yourself on your 100th post. Well, since I'm way past that (this is 213) and I'm always the last to know about these traditions, I'm going to post 213 things about myself.
And... how 'bout not. But I can do half of that.
I'm kind of looking at Life as a Mama's list for ideas, so forgive me if it's too similar to her's.
- I work at an elementary school as a "technology assistant." Basically, I teach the children computer skills.
- I graduated with a BS in Mathematics this past August.
- I should have 3 publications sometime this next year: 2 math and a chemical engineering one.
- I want to go to graduate school, but not in math. I'm thinking history, women's studies, or religious studies. Or all three.
- I am the oldest of 4. This means I was the guinea pig and that household rules were harshest for me and easiest on my little brother.
- I am expecting a baby in March. I don't care to find out the gender beforehand, as long as it's human (and even if they tell you it's human, with babies, it's hard to tell).
- I haven't been to the doctor yet for various reasons. These include (but are not limited to) the possibility of using a midwife for prenatal care and my general dislike of doctors.
- As of right now, I'm planning on having an unassisted childbirth. McKay has my permission to catch the baby (he had to promise that if he witnessed the birth, he'd still find me attractive afterwards!)
- I changed the car's battery today, all by myself, until McKay showed up while I was tightening the last screw, which he finished off for me.
- We're trying hard to establish a food storage in our little apartment. We have probably a month's worth of food for the two of us, maybe 5 weeks.
- We bought a new microwave last week!
- I love that I taught McKay to knit and I love bringing him to the yarn store with me. That's real family togetherness.
- I taught myself to knit after learning the knit stitch as a Beehive in Young Women's. I keep learning more because I never had a real teacher... like intarsia! If only I had known about intarsia 2 years ago!
- I tried to be a yarn snob once. I wouldn't buy anything with acrylic in it. I've since decided that yarn is yarn and if it fits your needs, then buy it. Sometimes you need the washability of acrylic. Don't snub yarn.
- I was a vegetarian for a month in high school.
- When I started dreaming about hot dogs, I decided to give it up.
- The official surrender was to chicken pot pie. But I learned that I really do like veggie burgers.
- My brother, Rick is in the MTC and will go to New York City in a few weeks to be a missionary.
- I've never been asked to speak in church since I've moved to Utah.
- The last time I spoke in church was the summer after my freshman year when I went home.
- McKay and I were married in the Chicago, Illinois Temple, the same temple my sister was sealed to my family in.
- I became interested in McKay when we both didn't have the money to go home at Thanksgiving and we were 2 of 13 people in the apartment building that stayed in Provo for the holiday. When there aren't people around to hang out with, you end up hanging out with the few that stayed behind.
- McKay proposed after 2 months of dating; we were engaged for 6 months.
- We went to the Wisconsin Dells on our honeymoon. America's largest waterpark down the street! America's largest indoor waterpark in our resort! Now that's what a honeymoon is about!
- The evening we got back from our honeymoon, we slept on our neighbor's couch (in their studio apartment) because we didn't have a bed yet.
- I love reading, but right now I don't know what to read, so I'm not currently in a book.
- It's really hard to sit while your husband does his homework. I'd watch movies, but with a one-room apartment, it'd be distracting for McKay. I guess this means I'll get lots of knitting done this fall.
- If we have a girl, her name will be Margaret Lynn.
- If we have a boy, his name will be Gerald (with a hard G). We can't decide on a middle name (there's a rock paper scissors waiting to happen).
- When I married McKay I inherited 15 (I think) nieces and nephews. Three more have been born since then. I had none before I married McKay.
- When I see other pregnant women, I can't imagine myself being that big, but I know I will be.
- I was on the color guard in high school for 3 years and at BYU for 2 years before I got married. I miss it because it kept me in shape.
- I own three color guard flags and hope to be an instructor for a high school color guard some day in the future.
- I went to the Illinois State Mathematics Contest all four years of high school, and was the second person from my high school to do so.
- I'm so glad I'm not in high school anymore.
- It's weird to be graduated, married, and expecting a child while my high school friends are still doing the dating, college party, single life thing, but I'm glad I'm out of that.
- I go to bed at 9:30.
- At my wedding I was too young to drink alcohol.
- Neither me nor my husband has ever had alcohol nor do we ever plan on it.
- We were both virgins until our wedding night.
- For dinner on our wedding night, we went to Culver's. McKay was unaccustomed to frozen custard, so I had to make sure he had some at least once in his life.
- I've been to Disneyworld, but not Disneyland. My husband is the opposite.
- I graduated seminary in 2004. Class was at 6 in the morning school days, but hey, it was great.
- I've had every piano-related church calling imaginable: ward pianist, relief society pianist, choir pianist, and now primary pianist.
- I've play the piano since 1st or 2nd grade. I used to be quite good. If we had a piano, I'd still be pretty good.
- I joined the band in fifth grade and played the clarinet because I had to do that for a year before I could play the oboe.
- When I tried out for the oboe, I told the band director that the oboe is the only reason I joined band.
- He let me play the oboe in sixth grade, but I think it was really so that he wouldn't lose another band student.
- I went to a bar mitzvah when I was 14. The same boy invited me to his prom 5 years later.
- I love okra.
- I want to make a baby sling even though I was informed that it makes you give off a "hippy" vibe.
- Once for a song in a piano recital, I stood up and stated, "I'm going to whistle Yellow Submarine by the Beatles with my eyes closed."
- I did it.
- The next week at my piano lesson, my teacher raved about my genius in choosing to do that.
- When I was in the seventh grade, I got upset at some boys who were picking on another boy. After I told them to back off, I heard one of the boys whisper, "She's PMSing." This was my first encounter with sexist comments and it was dumb because I wouldn't have my first period for another year. From this I've learned that even though I'm female and sometimes my hormones do affect my attitude, I know that I'm can feel strongly about something without it being hormone-related because I can distinctly remember that incident when I strongly reprimanded classmates for their meanness and I know for sure that hormones had nothing to do with it. Secondly, I never blame my hormones for anything because of this incident. I do the talking, not my hormones.
- I've seen a stuffed (as in taxidermy) Liger.
- I can't remember the last time I had a really good birthday. I've had definite bad ones, and mediocre ones, but not a good one lately. (We can blame McKay for last year's lousy birthday because he was sick that day and I had to take care of him :) )
- My favorite part of a men's body is the shoulders. Mmm... Shoulders...
- I feel connected to the world in airports and big cities.
- The Blue Man Group rocks. Everyone should see them perform live sometime. I highly recommend it.
- I've given really lousy talks in church.
- When I was little I used to be afraid of public speaking (still makes me nervous) so every Fast Sunday, I would go up and bear my testimony. I figured it would give me experience and I would overcome my fear.
- After 3 years, of doing this every month, I gave up and decided that bearing my testimony in church wasn't actually helping me get used to speaking in front of people. I was as afraid the last time as I was the first.
- Even though I'm working on making sure I love everyone, I really can't stand people who are just plain mean to other people. I also can't stand superficial people.
- I keep a jar to hold change in. It's almost filled and I can't wait to find out how much is in it.
- I'm an existentialist in that I don't believe that you can blame for past for how you are. We all go through hard times, but we are who we are because we choose to be. I also have little patience for people who blame something in their past and aren't doing anything to grow beyond that.
- I plan on breastfeeding as long as I can.
- I don't think being a wet nurse is strange. I'd totally do it.
- I ran two 5ks this past year, one for cancer research and one against pornography and abuse.
- McKay is three years older than me and I had to make sure he was ok with that when we got engaged. A three year difference was strange to me (my parents are 3 months apart).
- Our wedding cake was chocolate.
- I like my maiden name better than my married. It may be just because I had that name longer.
- On our wedding anniversary, we had hot dogs for dinner because we forgot to buy real food.
- I've never been the primary driver of a car younger than 1991.
- My favorite elementary school teacher was Mr. Felty. His birthday was Halloween.
- I've had my feet in both the Atlantic and Pacific Oceans.
- The strangest thing about my trip to Germany when I was 17 was realizing that people really do use German to go about their every-day lives. It's true. People really speak German!
- I was in the Geography Bee for 2 years in elementary school.
- I think I'm a pretty upbeat person.
- I regret forgetting my wedding hat at the house. I didn't have it for pictures at the temple or at the receptions. I wear it about once a month at church, though, if that counts for something.
- At the reception in California, I had just started my period that day (and my first day or two is always really rough). I had to put on a good face because it was our reception, but I really just wanted to be alone somewhere in the fetal position.
- I look really bloated in the pictures from that reception because of that.
- I sold my wedding dress half a year ago.
- I played softball for 4 seasons as a kid. For 3 of those seasons, my number was 14.
- I used to say my favorite candy bar was Baby Ruth because I played softball and thought that I was supposed to say that.
- My favorite candy bar is Butterfinger.
- I wont a root beer float drinking contest against a couple of guys my freshman year. I had somewhere around 8 root beer floats (and a little bread to keep my stomach from hating me).
- My favorite tree is maple.
- My favorite smell is lilac.
- Right now, I'm in love with the blue morning glories outside our apartment.
- When I was little I used to think my parents were "so old!" I know now that they aren't and I know that without fail, my own children will think I'm "so old!" even though I'm not.
- I get along well with most of my in laws.
- I remember the day of my baptism very distinctly, especially how I felt during the confirmation. But I also remember which dress I wore that day (it was a navy blue jumper with little white flowers) and what gifts I was given for that birthday (my scriptures, a Barbie from my grandpa, and a Minnie Mouse watch from my parents).
- I played the piano at my grandpa's funeral. I used the piano as my source for releasing my grief until my dad came into the piano room about a month after the funeral and told me to stop using the piano for my grief and to get over it. So I did.
- I still think about my grandpa.
- I try to write in my journal once a week or more.
- Even though I was allowed to date once I was 16, I didn't get asked on a date until I was almost 17.
- I've learned that high school dating is just silly and ridiculous.
- I've only thrown up 8 times my entire pregnancy. I think that's pretty darn good.
- Ghostbusters 2 gave me nightmares as a child.
- My favorite Primary song when I was little was "Give Said the Little Stream."
- I love how tangible God is
- My favorite story in the Old Testament is when Hosea marries a wife of whoredoms. It's a great lesson in forgiveness.
- Early on in our dating, I knew that McKay and I would have a long term relationship. I knew I'd never do anyting that would cause him to break up with me and he'd never do anything to cause me to break up with him.
- I had a birthmark in between the ring and pinky fingers on my right hand. You can barely see it now, but it was very noticeable when I was little.
- I love to floss.
So here's a summary of this past weekend.
On Saturday we ran errands. Many errands.
And on Sunday, we canned 6 quarts of peaches!
The peaches came from the Duede's peach tree which had a branch fall. They gave us the peaches from the branch and our home teacher's lent us their steam canner. It was a mess, but hey, now we have a food storage. It might consist mostly of these peaches, though.
Monday, Tuesday, and today, I went to work. Pretty darn exciting, huh?
Working with elementary children is not monotonous, but it can be frustrating. And rewarding. Story time!
There's one boy in a third grade class that doesn't know English (actually 50% of the students are in ESL). He doesn't know Spanish, either, otherwise the rest of the kids could talk to him. On Monday, I found out what he knows: Portuguese. The teacher can't talk to him, the other students can't talk to him, but he is bright! He's the fastest typer in the class.
Well, my husband spent two years in Brazil and he knows Portuguese fluently. So I go home and ask him how to say some things. I even make up a cheat sheet for the teacher with basic things like "Thank you" "Good job" etc. Well, yesterday, I told him to change his font to twenty, but I guess he doesn't know what twenty is, so I say "vinte" as I point to the font size box. He changes it to twenty, and then realizes that I didn't speak English. He looks up at me and smiles. It was wonderful! Today I told him, "Meu marido fala Portugues. Ele me ensina" which means, "My husband speaks Portuguese. He teaches me." The boy understood and I think he was glad that I was trying to help him out.
Well, off to read some blogs. My Google Reader is full and I can't view them from the work computer due to filtering or something.
Friday, September 07, 2007
So Comcast was supposed to come on Wednesday, but they didn't. They claim that they're coming NEXT Wednesday. And the computers at work block Blogger and most other journaling sites, so I haven't been able to read everyone's blogs. Sadness. So I'm at the library trying to catch up on a week of blogging excitement.
My new job? How is it going? Pretty well. M-Th I teach touch typing, so that's pretty boring. One of the kids asked if my name was Mrs. Farty. Right... Another little girl was sure that her computer wouldn't capitalize the letters. I had to show her that you have to HOLD DOWN the shift while pressing the letter you want capitalized.
Really the most exciting events this week were the thunderstorms. Tuesday I went to JC Penney's to buy (gasp) maternity clothes. I'm pretty picky about clothes, if I don't completely like them, I don't buy them. So while my goal was to buy khakis for work, I ended up with a pair of jeans and a shirt that was on clearance. Total: $28. The khakis they had showed too many wrinkles from my underthings, so I didn't get them. On the way out of Penney's, though, the power cut out and a huge thunderstorm came through. It was gone in an hour and I thought it would be over, but the rain came back later that night and in the early morning.
And THEN. I drove to work. After work, I found that I left my lights on and the battery was dead. After two different attempts at zapping life back into it, it was up and running and I was on my way home!
Hahaha. Not the end of the story.
Next morning. McKay has the phone and is at school. I head out to the car and it's dead. I guess I didn't have it going long enough to recharge up the battery the day before. So it's 8 in the morning and I don't have a phone and I'm knocking on the neighbor's door. At the second door, I find a phone and a ward directory and call my home teacher... who is in class, but his wife offered her help and she drove me to and from work on Thursday. She has 3 beautiful daughters. We talked about pregnancy and such. Her MIL is a Bradley instructor so she used the Bradley method for birthing. I had already decided that I didn't like Lamaze's method, and was looking into Bradley, so it was nice to have someone to talk to (especially now that I am actually telling people that I'm pregnant).
Anyway, a friend of ours re-jumped our car and it worked this morning, but I didn't. I mean, I went to work, but on Fridays we do CSRing and working on projects, but since it's the first week, we had nothing to do and I couldn't even blog! So I disinfected the laptops (yesterday there was an incident of a student spreading feces all over a bathroom with a finger, so we decided it wouldn't hurt to re-clean the keyboards).
Well, anyway. It's weird working for an elementary school, especially when the teachers aren't big anymore. But it's sweet to eat in the teacher's lounge and get a free newspaper every day.
And one more thing. If a shirt shirt says small. It had better be small. I think the "small" on the label means "fits a small house." Gosh! Maternity clothes! At least the pants are way comfortable even thought they like to fall off my hips (and believe me folks, I have HIPS).
And the Duedes gave us a bushel of peaches. What do I do with a whole bushel of peaches? I guess I have to go buy canning supplies.