Thursday, December 27, 2007

Post Christmas

I hope everyone had a happy Christmas. Our pre-Christmas festivities are here; I'm sure we have a couple of pictures of actual Christmas activities, but they probably aren't that interesting. Who wants to see pictures of newlyweds? No one. It's sickening how cutesy romantic those things get. But give us a few months and we'll have pictures of a baby, so you'll all want to check out the blogs more. :)

So a little end of year reviewing.

Things I did at the beginning of the year that I didn't at the end:

  • Go to school (I've graduated!!)
  • Write in my journal more. I did well up until July or so. I've only written 3 times since September. Dumb, huh?
  • I was the Relief Society Newsletter person until September.
  • Mathematics research.
  • I ran a couple of 5k's this year, but both were earlier in the year.

Things I did at the end of the year that I didn't at the beginning:
  • Taught computers at an elementary school.
  • Be pregnant.
  • Not have homework! Woohoo!
  • Primary pianist
  • Knit more. I've definitely knit more in the last couple of months than I did earlier in the year.
  • I've done more visiting teaching this second half of the year.
Goals for next year:
  • More regular visiting teaching
  • More journal writing!
  • PPH
  • Have a baby. (I don't think I can actually prevent that one from happening at this point).
  • Find a way to make money from home.
  • Lose baby weight + some. I know it takes 9 months to put on and it'll probably take 9 months to get off. So hey, in a year, I'll be back in shape.
  • Actually like running...???? Maybe? I'll see what I can do about that. McKay likes running a lot. I'll see if he has any "happy to go jogging" secrets.
  • Take more pictures.
  • I would really like more upper body strength; it's an area I've always lagged in. Gotta do some pushups!
  • See my grandparents. It's been a while.
And I think that's enough goals. Make too many and I'll disappoint myself. :)

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Boredom

So today went like this:
Wake up.
Run to the post office.
Sew.
Knit.
Internet.
Knit.
Internet.
Knit.
Internet.
etc.

So basically I was bored to tears. When I got tired of knitting, I checked my email. When I got tired of that, I knitted. McKay was taking finals and I was just sitting here. I feel bad for the baby because usually it gets to hear my voice all day, but today I just sat in the quiet. I sang to the baby a little because I felt bad about it not hearing me.

I even talked to my mom a couple of times and my sister and even my dad once.

I was getting to the point where I was about to call my visiting teachers and ask them to come and sit while I knit so I'm not lonely.

Usually in situations like these, I call Carolyn or somebody. Well, Carolyn had a baby yesterday and her family is in town, so I figured I'd try at a different time. And all the somebodies I know are in school and are either taking finals or studying or have finished and gone home for the holidays. Hooray for college towns. I wonder how many people will be at church on Sunday.

I am so glad that I have a job. I can't imagine doing this every day. I know once I have the baby, I'll be home alone with the baby lots, but at least I'd be able to find people in town in March. Christmas is just a bad time for catching people. And people are probably more willing to come over if you have kids. Who wants to talk to a pregnant woman? Not many people. Who wants to coo over a baby? Pretty much every female I know.


I know, I know. Poor me. I get winter break. Wah wah wah.

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

What I was thinking...

... at 10:02 this morning.

"I'm pretty sure this elevator is camera-free."

I then proceeded to dance the twist.

Labor Practice

So yesterday, I finished re-reading Laura Shanley's Unassisted Childbirth. I was thinking about how she had dreams during her pregnancy about birth, and I thought to myself, "I haven't had one of those in a while." Well, then I got one last night. It was strange, though.

In my dream, I was looking down at my belly. I knew in my dream that I was only 6 months along, like I am now, and I knew the baby wasn't ready yet, but I wanted to figure out what position the baby was in (I've been reading spinningbabies.com lately). For some reason, in my dream, the logical thing to do was to flex my uterus/push, so I did. And immediately, the head was down in my pelvis ready to come out! I knew that it was too soon to have the baby, so I stopped my push and tried to push the baby back up into my abdomen with my hands pressing on my lower belly (like a tube of toothpaste going the wrong way!)

But then I got curious about the baby and birthing, so in my dream, I decided to push again, and again the baby was in my pelvis ready to come out. I must have been sitting or squatting, because I decided on one more little push and it crowned! I saw the face looking at me from in between my legs! It was weird to watch the baby watch me. We just kind of looked at each other for a while.

It was obviously posterior and face-presenting. I really don't think that's even physically possible in real life, but that's what was going on in the dream. In my dream, I questioned if it was ok that she was face-presenting, but I knew immediately that everything was fine. Then the rest of the baby slipped out and I caught her (that's when I realized it was a her). There was no bag of waters, just a baby and a cord. Well, she was really thin and obviously not done developing, so I decided to put her back in.

Yeah. Crazy, huh? So I take her legs and put them together, and shove them right back in! I get the rest of her back in and position her head so that when she came out again, she wouldn't be face-presenting. I could even shape her head with my hand as I put her back in. That kind of felt weird.

Well, then I wanted to birth her again. At this point I knew that she wasn't ready to really come out, but I also knew I could put her back in if I wanted to, so I push her out again. Again she came face-presenting. I don't know how because I had just positioned her head. So I put her back in again and birth her again. Another face.

At this point in my dream, I'm wondering if I've stretched myself out too much: pushing her in and out so many times. I was worried that if I put her in again, she'd just slip right out because I was so stretched! But I put her in again and it was ok.


And then I woke up and thought about what a crazy dream it was.

My over-all impressions: I remember that none of it hurt. It was really nice to birth over and over and get used to it feeling natural and not hurting at all, even though the position would have meant all kinds of back labor for most people. What I remember most was the ease of the birth and how easy I stretched and easy it was for both of us. The baby never cried nor looked upset: just a happy baby practicing her debut.
I don't really think that the baby can be both posterior and face-presenting at the same time (I could be wrong, though), so I don't think that's a predictor of the baby's position. I think the posterior/face-presenting was for my benefit: I looked at her and looked at her and she kept looking at me. It was a nice greeting for the both of us. Maybe it shows I really want to meet this baby or she really wants to meet me, or both.

And for the record, we don't actually know the gender in real life. The baby was a girl in this dream, but has been a boy in other dreams. I think the number of girl dreams outnumber the boy dreams by 2, though. The girl dream was odd because lately I've been thinking of the baby as a boy and now I've switched opinions again. Look for a "contest" in the future about the baby's gender. Probably January.

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

It's my birthday, and I can sigh if I want to...

I didn't say "cry" because I've actually felt really good today (minus that charley horse in my leg at 3:30 this morning).

So now I'm old. Except that I'm not, but I have done some reflecting on what I've done with my life up to this point. What have I done with my life? I stole this list from my sister-in-law, Laura.

What I've done is Bolded.

01. Sang the National Anthem at a public event- (not as the featured singer, but I sang it every time at the BYU football games when I was down on the field for color guard)
02. Swam with wild dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain (hiked one, not really climbed)
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
06. Held a tarantula (at my Primary teacher's house... I was 7, I think)
07. Won a pie eating contest, or any eating contest (I'm hoping rootbeer float drinking contests count)
08. Said “I love you’ and meant it
09. Hugged a tree (if you haven't, you have no heart)
10. Bungee jumped
11. Visited Paris
12. Watched a lightning storm
13. . Seen the Northern Lights
14.Stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise- I've woken up early for the sunrise, though.
15. Gone to a huge sports game (Go Cougs!)
16. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
17. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
18. Touched an iceberg
19. Slept under the stars- only ever in a tent
20. Changed a baby’s diaper
21. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon- oh I so want to do that!
22. Watched a meteor shower- I love cosmic events
23. Gotten drunk on slurpees
24. Given more than you can afford to charity-
25. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope- BYU planetarium date
26. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment (probably not the worst, but that silent part in Fellowship of the Ring where the Ringwraiths are about to stab the hobbits in their sleep at the inn---yes. Don't sit by me in the movie theater)
27. Had a food fight
28. Overcome a fear (fear of failing, public speaking, fear of confronting people)
29. Asked out a stranger- but I have said yes to a stranger asking me on a date.
30. Had a snowball fight
31. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
32. Held a lamb- but I have petted a llama
33. Seen a total eclipse-(through a cardboard box)
34. Ridden a roller coaster
35. Hit a home run (at softball practice...)
36. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking (I was caught by the ESL teacher today doing this)
37. Adopted an accent for an entire day (does SYL at the MTC count?)
38. Actually felt happy about your life
39. Had two hard drives for your computer- I guess partitioned drives don't count
40. Visited all 50 states
41. Can recite something over 100 words long
42. Have amazing friends
43. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country- but a man in Germany did ask me to go with him to his cabin in Ireland...I didn't go, though.
44. Watched wild whales
45. Stolen a sign- crosswalk flags probably don't count
46. Backpacked in Europe
47. Taken a road-trip
48. Gone rock climbing
49. Midnight walk on the beach
50. Gone sky diving
51. Visited Ireland
52. Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love
53. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger’s table and had a meal with them
54. Visited Japan
55. Milked a cow
56. Alphabetized your CDs- (currently alphabetized)
57. Pretended to be a superhero- (who hasn't?)
58. Sung karaoke (Yellow Submarine)
59. Lounged around in bed all day
60. Slept in a castle
61. Gone scuba diving
62. Kissed in the rain
63. Played in the mud
64. Played in the rain

65. Gone to a drive-in theater
66. Visited the Great Wall of China
67. Started a business
68. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
69. Toured ancient sites- (define ancient)
70. Taken a martial arts class
71. Played some sort of game for more than 6 hours straight (this made possible by Nintendo)
72. Gotten married
73. Been in a movie
74. Crashed a party
75. Eaten food you had no clue what it was but did it out of respect for your host
76. Gone without food for 5 days
77. Made cookies from scratch (recipe memorized: check)
78. Won first prize in a costume contest
79. Ridden a gondola in Venice
80. Been skinny dipping
81. Rafted the Snake River
82. Been on television news programs as an “expert”
83. Got flowers for no reason
84. Performed on stage
85. Been to Las Vegas
86. Recorded music
87. Eaten shark
88. Stood up for something against the crowd
89. Gone to Thailand
90. Bought a house- I'm actually really afraid for that to happen in the future.
91. Been in a combat zone- during combat? because I've been to plenty of battlefields
92. Buried one/both of your parents
93. Been on a cruise ship
94. Spoken more than one language fluently- pig latin doesn't count?
95. Asked someone for forgiveness and received it
96. Raised children
97. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
99. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
100. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over- college doesn't count, does it? it pretty much forces you to start over
101. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge- but I have ridden across it
102. Sang loudly in the car, and didn’t stop when you knew someone was looking
103. Had plastic surgery
104. Survived an accident that you shouldn’t have survived
105. Wrote articles for a large publication (they're written, but not published)
106. Lost over 100 pounds
107. Held someone while they were having a flashback
108. Piloted an airplane
109. Petted a stingray
110. Been afraid for your life
111. Helped an animal give birth
112. Won money on a T.V. game show
113. Broken a bone
115. Lived longer than a year in another country
116. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
117. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
118. Ridden a horse
119. Had major surgery- (born with a broken heart...)
120. Had a snake as a pet
121. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
122. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
123. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
124. Visited all 7 continents
125. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
126. Eaten kangaroo meat
127. Eaten sushi
128. Had your picture in the newspaper
129. Changed someone’s mind about something you care deeply about
130. Gone back to school
131. Parasailed
132. Petted a cockroach
133. Eaten fried green tomatoes (YUMMY!)
134. Read The Iliad (I've even read the first page or so in its original Greek)
135. Selected one “important” author who you missed in school, and read (Machiavelli)
136. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
137. Skipped all your school reunions-haven't had one yet- unless you count the 3.5 year reunion of bar hopping that I missed this Thanksgiving.

138. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
139. Been elected to public office
140. Written your own computer language
141. Thought to yourself that you’re living your dream
142. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
143. Built your own PC from parts- not my own.
144. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn’t know you
145. Had a booth at a fair- I've manned one, though
146. Dyed your hair
147. Been a DJ
148. Shaved your head
149. Caused a car accident (I was walking across the street- a car stopped for me to cross, but the car behind that one didn't notice and rear-ended the other one)

150. Saved someone’s life (I've prayed for many people, though, and I think that's good)

So I've obviously not done enough with my life, but I do feel my life is very satisfying. I'm very excited about this upcoming birth and I'm so glad to be married to McKay. We live comfortably and I have a degree. I think I've accomplished a lot.

Woohoo! 22! (McKay's turning 25- now that's old!)

Monday, December 10, 2007

The homestretch

Here are some pictures of me. You can see that I am now starting up my third trimester (like trimesters actually mean something). In my mind, however, it doesn't actually start until Christmas. Christmas is my break through point.



This is my last full week of work before winter break. I still have to work 3 days next week, but at least the end is in sight.

Oh, and we did get to hear the baby's heartbeat, and it's nice and strong (though very quiet). My favorite sound is the placenta, though.

Quote of the weekend: "If the Force was a food, it'd be vanilla icing."

Friday, December 07, 2007

The Tell Tale Heart

Today we got a fetoscope! Now we can hear the baby whenever we want.

Well, if I can find the baby's heartbeat... I think I've found the placenta (it goes whoosh!), but I'm having issues with finding the heartbeat. It kicks, so it must have one. Maybe it's just in a weird position. McKay might have better luck because he can use the forehead rest.

And the placenta isn't where I thought it'd be... hmmm. Maybe someone came at night and flipped my uterus around.

Meanwhile, I've definitely found my own heartbeat, so at least I'm alive.

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

Thank goodness...

...I haven't gained too much pregnancy weight.

Reason #1: If I were bigger, I wouldn't be able to climb in through the trunk to get into the driver's seat in the car. (The locks were frozen. I had to breathe on the trunk's lock to get it to unfreeze.)

Reason #2: If I were bigger, I'd have less balance and the parking lot at work would have definitely knocked me down yesterday. Don't they salt the blacktop? It wasn't at the point where it would be too cold for salt to work!

I look forward to an eventful winter as I get bigger, though. I just hope I don't slip and go into labor prematurely. I wasn't endowed with much balance to start with...

Overheard in second grade...

"My mom's pregnant. This is her first pregnancy."



Note: this girl also has a little brother. This is probably around her mother's THIRD pregnancy, but whatever.

Monday, December 03, 2007

My favorite things about this weekend

  1. It snowed!!!
  2. I got to change the calendar to December!
  3. We started decorating for Christmas!
  4. It snowed!
  5. Snow!
  6. December!
  7. Snow!
  8. Christmas tree(s?) (that's a fun story)
  9. SNOW!!!!!
  10. Long walks in the snow!