Thursday, February 28, 2008

Where have I been?

I kind of took a break.
This is my last week of work, and it kind of felt better to just work and focus on work and ignore most everything else. This means my blogs were ignored, my Reader was ignored (that's why I haven't commented on anyone's blogs lately), forums were ignored, and even (gasp!) my knitting was ignored. To let you know how ignored my knitting was, I'll just say I didn't even take it to the LLL meeting last night, and I probably won't take any to the UCAN meeting tonight.

But I did get some things done. Most of the dishes are clean (notice how I didn't say all), the living room is still somewhat tidy from Sunday when we had guests over, I sent out swap packages, finished my visiting teaching, got visit taught, played Cranium, and went to LLL. I still have a nice To Do list, but tomorrow is my last day at work and I'll just be there in the morning.

Work has been great. I've been training my replacement and she's a quick learner. Plus, she didn't consider my birth plans to be unusual (she also eats organic, is a non-vaxer, and has had 3 midwife births). It was nice to be able to freely chat with someone at work about birth.

Birth musings:

I always thought I'd be getting a lot of negative vibes from people by this point. Admittedly, I did get some last weekend from various people, but that wasn't unusual. The compassionate service leader at church wants me to call her as soon as I'm in labor. I figure that call can wait until after the baby comes. :)
Tonight I'm going to the UCAN meeting to fill up on positive vibes.
Do I feel like I'm getting close to labor? Not really. It still seems so far away. Sometimes being up too long will cause me to have some BH, but it always goes away and is never unbearable.

It'll be really strange next week to not go to work. What will I do with myself? Well, I guess I can catch up on my neglected knitting.

And for those of you who have access to youtube (aka, not you, Jillynn, sorry, though you should totally hear it), I found this song on the unassisted birth humor forum.

Friday, February 22, 2008

How I'm feeling

Last night I was tired. REALLY tired. So I didn't go see all the AP people like I planned (I had even bought a candle and had a bead ready). I wanted to, but as I was waiting for McKay to come home from school, the thought came to me, "You're tired for a reason- do something about it!" Yes, it's true. I'm very pregnant and I might give birth soon (and we all know how much sleep I'll get after the baby has arrived). So I decided that my body needed sleep and relaxation and I didn't go out. McKay gave me a blessing earlier in this pregnancy, and I was told to "do only that which I know is good for the baby." I couldn't justify going out when I knew that sleep was good for the baby.

And today, I have quite the To Do: list. I'm going to post it here- I feel that if I post my to do list online, I'm actually going to do it, since you'll all expect me to. Most of it is getting packages out.

So in no particular order (and I honestly have no idea what order I'm going to do this all in)

  • Send out the Baby A Baby Swap contest prize.
  • Finish buying the items for the Scavenger Hunt Swap and get that package ready to go out tomorrow.
  • Print out some of the maternity pictures for grandparents, my brother, and other relatives and get those out in the mail. Speaking of, I should post more of them. I put some up on Facebook, and some of the ones that got a lot of comments aren't posted on our mutual blog (I did that for space-saving reasons). However, if they're that popular, I guess I should post them on our blog, too.
  • Get some yarn out to my MIL/SIL. Deia is going to crochet a scarf with the same yarn that McKay knit a beret from for their mom. We were lucky that the yarn store still had the dye lot in stock!
  • CLEAN THE HOUSE! I've actually been somewhat on top of it. All that's left in the bathroom is the tub and floors since I did the sink and toilet earlier this week. Some of the youth in the ward came and did some dishes for us (they were on a service scavenger hunt the other night), so we don't have much of those to do. Speaking of doing dishes, on Monday night, our kitchen faucet broke. It got fixed, but we didn't do our dishes that night because we were kind of sick of being near the sink and it was wet everywhere and it needed to dry. So we're only behind in dishes because of that. What I really need to do house-wise is find a place for all my knitting WIP, as they are in a pile on the floor. If I could just knit them and send them out, it'd be great.
  • Go shopping for a wading pool and some Chux pads for the birth.
  • Sew a sling. And I came into possession of quite a few old cub scout bandannas. I'm wondering if they'd be good for something. I think I'll ask the APers if they know how to transform them into diapers or something.
  • Knitting I'd like to finish: the dog sweater, little mittens to go with a bear hat I made for my etsy shop, a baby ear flap hat to go in my etsy shop, the Baby a Baby Swap gift, and my February socks.
And none of this can get done until after I get off from work at 12. And I have an appt. at 3. We'll see how this goes today.

Off to work I go!

Let's hope I don't wear myself out today. I've been having mild mild menstrual-like cramps since yesterday morning. I figure it's normal and I still have lots of time, though.

Cool comic of the day

I just thought I'd share this with you all.

It showed up in my reader this morning.

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

in the hole (but not on deck)

Signs labor will show up in the next month or so:

  • Dilation. I've been dilated since early January, but this past weekend, I've definitely felt more open- I'd guess around a 3.
  • Baby's in a great position. If my assessment of the position is correct (based on location of heartbeat, kicks, and where the big round hard spots are), its butt is right where it should be, its feet are kicking the right side and its head is down.
  • Some BH* this past weekend, but really only when I was up for too long. And I could very easily ignore them. I knew they were there, but it was like a very very light menstrual cramp- the kind that I've learned to ignore.
  • Loose stools. Yesterday, for the first time in a long time, I wasn't constipated. It may have something to do with the fact that I tripled my fiber intake yesterday, though. Either that or someone spiked my breakfast with castor oil. Bodies like to not have things in their bowels if a baby's also going to be putting pressure down there, so they'll empty themselves out pretty thoroughly before labor. Except for breakfast this morning, I'm pretty thoroughly empty.
  • Sunday night, in a dream, I felt that this baby was coming this week. When I woke up, I immediately told myself, "No way that's going to happen!" I am still quite doubtful of it. I'm hoping it takes its precious time.

Signs it's going to be a little while longer:
  • No loss of mucus plug.
  • Baby hasn't dropped, as far as I can tell- though it's been head down most of the pregnancy, so maybe I won't have a noticeable "drop." I haven't had problems breathing at all, so maybe the baby is just low (except how would that explain the heartburn?)
  • The water bag is still intact.
  • No regular BH.
  • Lack of nesting. Well, maybe I am nesting, but I don't actually have the time to do it. My brain might be in nesting mode but my schedule is not. Although if I ask myself, "Self, would you clean up the house, buy some more birth supplies, or get some baby stuff if you had the day off?" My self responds, "Nope! I'd knit, though!" That might be pretty indicative of where my nesting instincts are: not here.

Why it wouldn't surprise me if it were today: the full moon**. Babies just like full moons. The baby won't be "due" until the new moon, but it wouldn't surprise me if it came today or on the next full moon and be a little "late".

I'm actually rooting for the "late." March's full moon sounds good. Or Easter. It'd be so nice to have a couple of weeks with no work (next week is my last) and no baby (though it would be welcome, of course). Also, we have no baby clothes, except for a few pairs of socks and a hat I've knit. And we have 1 diaper. We've kind of been waiting for the baby shower to get baby things. We figured we'd find out what we get and then buy what we didn't. But we are pretty ready for the birth itself. McKay would still like to go out and get a wading pool, but he's been very busy with school and work. He's doing a wonderful job of being on top of his homework so this baby doesn't cripple him academically.

So those are the thoughts that have been going through my head (especially when I get up to pee in the middle of the night). I really don't think this baby is coming soon, but I'm surprised at how many labor signs I have been having. Of course, you can't REALLY know you're in labor until you see the head coming out! :)

*You may call them Braxton Hicks if you'd like, but I'm going to call them Baby Hugs. They sound more fun that way.

** For those of you interested, there should be a pretty nice lunar eclipse tonight. Check it out! If it's not overcast, we're definitely checking it out.

Monday, February 18, 2008


If anyone's interested, we posted maternity pictures at our site. They were done by our friend, Seagal. We are so happy to have the pictures! And there's a whole ton of pictures we didn't post- we figured a few would do.

And here're some links to articles I've enjoyed lately.

Pelvises I have known and loved
Watch your language!
And a link to a blog I once read, but forgot about.

Meanwhile, I'm very tired- I need to get in the habit of actually going to bed earlier. This three-day weekend killed my sleeping schedule.

I only have 2 more weeks of work! It doesn't seem possible at all, but I am excited for it. I should start nesting any day now (I hope!). Maybe lack of nesting means I've got another month or more. That'd be nice and give me a couple of non-work weeks to do some knitting before the baby shows up. Of course, I won't complain if the baby shows up earlier.

Sunday, February 17, 2008

Faith, Fear, and a Calling

When I woke up for my nightly trip to the bathroom last night, I discovered that (once again) I was sleeping on my belly. Can an 8 month pregnant woman sleep on her tummy? Well, obviously. But isn't that bad? Not in my book, and here's why.

If you were to sleep how you're "supposed to" you'd look like this fellow above (except with pillows instead of plastic colored balls). If you look at the world as a whole and think about all the different sleeping arrangements, you'll notice not every woman has access to a nice comfy bed with 30 pillows that can be shoved in between her legs and behind her and in front of her and underneath her etc. In fact, most of these women have never even been told "how" to sleep when pregnant. They just do what they can. It is my belief that if you really are in a position that's going to endanger the baby, then you'll know to move: you'll be uncomfortable enough to change it. I don't think that your sleeping position is going to kill/damage your baby. God designed our bodies, and I'm pretty sure that's something he took into consideration.

I rant about this, not because this is an issue that needs all that much attention, but that it's a prime example how women are scared/threatened into feeling inferior. "This is the ideal way to sleep (insert: gain weight, exercise, wear clothing) while pregnant and good thing we were here to tell you- you might have ruined your baby's life and have become a terrible mother."

Once upon a time, motherhood was a great calling (it still is). Women are made to be mothers; women are made to become eternal mothers. But there is someone who doesn't like people realizing their higher callings and becoming exalted. This someone is Satan. So he put it into people's minds that motherhood was this terrible burden and that childbirth was painful and you HAD to suffer. One of the large ways this is ingrained into society is original sin: Eve messed up, so women must suffer. Not trying to offend the original sin believers out there, but that's not a theory I buy into. In fact, it shouldn't be a theory any Latter-day Saint should buy into. The second Article of Faith states, "We believe that men will be punished for their own sins, and not for Adam's transgression." I'd like to insert "women" and "Eve's" into their respective places in that scripture.

For those of you not familiar with LDS doctrine, the Articles of Faith are 13 verses that are viewed as the main beliefs of our religion and you might say that all other beliefs in the Church stem from these 13.

Anyway, what I'm trying to say is that in Catholic/Protestant based societies, such as America, there is this idea that women SHOULD suffer because of original sin. Even if you're not Catholic/Protestant, the idea that childbirth is painful is shown so often in media that even though you don't know why it's "supposed to be" painful, you don't question it. So already, women are afraid of birth.

Then let us go to the pregnant and birthing woman: she is already afraid of the pain, and then she is told you need ______ or else she or the baby will suffer/be harmed/die. The blank can be filled in with any number of things: diets, ultrasounds, strict exercise routines, invasive vaginal exams, painkillers, labor inducers, episiotomy, forceps delivery, cesarean, etc.
What does this tell the woman? You aren't good enough. That body that God gave you is faulty. You're faulty. She becomes worried and questions her abilities The science and technology which is supposed to be a blessing to improve our lives is now being used to hurt our faith in ourselves and God.

She brings the baby home with this fear and this feeling of inadequacy. If she couldn't even birth the child, can she feed it? Can she cloth it properly? Discipline it? Can she raise it?

Women are not supposed to be afraid of motherhood; it's what we are designed to do. Fear is of the devil. God doesn't want us to be afraid of our callings. We are given godly traits to help us. We are given inspiration for our families.

I have many reasons why I'm going to UC. This is one of them. I don't want to be surrounded by people who are going to tell me I'm not good enough*. I don't want my thoughts and feelings ruled by fear. With my UC, I'll have my husband and me and God. I may also (because sometimes I need people- and I can't predict how I'll feel during the birth) have a few people there that I know will not hinder me or question my abilities. I want to come away from this birth without fear, without feelings of inadequacy. I'm good enough to birth and become mother because that's what God wants me to be. All women are good enough.

*This reminds me of the Monty Python skit. "What do I do?" "Nothing. You're not qualified!"

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Things I love

It appears that the non-blood-related Farley women are doing this. I'll jump on the bandwagon.


McKay- He's so patient, calm, and trusting of my decisions. He also encourages me to do what I feel that I need to do. This is important to me. There have been too many times in my life where different people have heard my crazy ideas and have beaten them down. He doesn't do that. I tell him my crazy ideas and thinks that they're great and supports me. And I love him for that. I really need the support.

The baby- I do love the baby. It's been a great baby this pregnancy- hasn't hurt me much. I can still sleep well through the night. In fact, I really think I could easily handle a couple more months of pregnancy- it's been a dream! However, I know that there's less than a month left like this (give or take a few weeks). I hope the baby is as wonderful outside my uterus as it is inside (and I'm sure it will be).

Math- Although I don't want to do it for the rest of my life, I do like to reminisce about how math used to be so fascinating to me. It still is fascinating to me. Today I was remembering a book I got from my third grade teacher that was about what one million means. Math is so magical sometimes.

Women- I love women. I wish women would be more confident in themselves. That's why I love Relief Society and Enrichment- those programs bring women up. I'm also a bit of a feminist. What I really want to do with my life is empower women. Project: Pigeon Hole is about that. I haven't worked on it much lately, but if McKay gets that job in SLC, I'll be able to be closer to my resources. Of course if he does, he'll just have to make enough money for me to be able to acquire my resources over distances. :)

Food- Good food. My tastes in food have definitely expanded since I was little. I like trying new things. My favorite part of eating is the texture of foods. I'll overeat simply because I like the textures in my mouth. I need to watch that over eating thing, though.

Knitting. Knitting is a great past time. I can make beautiful things with my own two hands. For some reason, I don't have much patience for sewing (the machine goes too fast for me and the thread breaks too often for my liking). But knitting: nice and steady and beautiful. I also think it's amazing that something that seems so one dimensional (the string, being a line) can be knotted up so that it's two dimensional (the fabric) or even three (when I make toys). Of course the yarn is really 3 dimensional, but I think you know what I mean.

Peanuts. I love Snoopy, Charlie Brown, Linus, Lucy, all of them! Peanuts addresses a lot of issues and is really political at time. I also like the characters: they are children and they look like children. They aren't children who are drawn to look like miniature adults like so many other cartoon characters. If I get any character-related baby items for my baby showers, I hope they're Peanuts characters.

Snow- We've had lots of it this year and I love it! Without snow, February looks like... gray slush. But it's so beautiful and white!

Green- my favorite part of spring is seeing the buds of new leaves on the trees. After winter, it's refreshing and relaxing to the eyes to see those tiny bits of green.

Getting mail- I think this is self-explanatory.

Being pregnant- it's a lot of fun, not as bad as everyone wants to make it out. I've been getting a lot of "Are you sick of it yet?" questions. No! It's great! It's fun! I could do this forever (and in a strange eternal perspective, I might).

Balloons- who doesn't love balloons?

I'm sure there's more things I love. In the words of Linus VanPelt, "I love without reservation! I love without qualification! I love without even thinking!" (June 7, 1958).

The Terrible Things

(what a title for Valentine's Day, huh?) I'll post something happier later.

I was reading Alisa's blog yesterday. There has been some Todo about this bill. I believe the underlined parts are the changes they are trying to make. It will prevent lots of women from being able to use a direct-entry midwife in the state of Utah. I have friends who have lots of heated opinions about the topic. To be honest, I'm at an impasse.

My initial reaction to this bill was, "Ok. Well, it doesn't concern me- UC is still legal. I'll just ignore it."

But that reminded me of a book called "The Terrible Things" by Eve Bunting. It's a children's picture book that introduces the Holocaust, but the idea works will all kinds of apathy. You can read some of it here.

The problem is that since I'll probably never use a midwife, I don't have a lot of heart in their plight. I'm choosing UC and any time that I really truly need assistance, it'll be dire and require an OB. I also feel that most every woman can learn to trust herself and her body and God to the point where she will be able to UC.

Midwifery can be a good stepping stone for women to learn to trust their bodies, but I'm also fearful that sometimes midwifes take the "good thing I saved you" attitude of doctors and prevent women from trusting themselves more fully.

Then there's where the Terrible Things come in. If this bill passes, midwifery will be limited, choices will be fewer, and legislation might go into fighting against UC, or at least make it more difficult to UC and make procedures surrounding UC more strenuous (such as acquiring a birth certificate). I'm NOT for limiting choices. Choices are a great tool for growth and education. As long as there are options available, women will continue researching birth and questioning the mainstream dogma. But if midwifery becomes too limited, some women will not research other options and just go with Big Brother. I'm all for agency. Agency is a great thing. In fact, it's one of the best things ever and allows us to be happy.

So part of me wants to help out in this cause, just for the cause of agency in birth choices. But part of me still is thinking, "This doesn't apply to me." At the moment, I just don't know. Thanks for reading my rant/moral struggle.

Monday, February 11, 2008

The goings on

So on Friday McKay had a job interview and he got accepted into grad school. All very exciting!

I also gave him a haircut for his interview.

Meanwhile, we've been getting ready for this baby. Last night we made some goulash and froze some. We have 4-5 dinners in our freezer now waiting to be eaten for when the baby shows up. My goal is to have about 10 days worth by the time I go into labor.

We also did some baby shopping on Saturday. Saturday morning I bought a 99 cent blanket for initial baby warmth. I'll probably get plenty of baby blankets from baby showers and such, but I'd rather not use a nice blanket while the baby is still vernix-y. This way, we can just throw out the blanket and not feel guilty.

Secondly, I figure no one's going to actually buy a car seat for the baby shower (they're so darn expensive). So we got one. On mega sale. $25. I was hesitant to buy one- I don't actually think we'll be driving the baby around much. Everything I need is in walking distance: church, groceries, yarn store, post office, etc., and walking is better for me anyway. I would like to get a jogging stroller, but new ones are really expensive, so I don't expect to get one of those either. Kid to Kid had a few in the $50-75 range. We'll probably end up getting that there.

We also got some cheap towels and other supplies for the birth, which makes us a little more prepared.

I had a labor dream the other night- but I woke up before the baby actually was born. In the dream, I had gone to the bathroom. When I stood up, I noticed some water by my feet. "Maybe my water broke," I thought. I felt my belly and it was a shape it had never been before. "Oh. The baby dropped and I guess my water broke, too." Then in the dream, I called for McKay to get the towels we had just bought and I stood over those. However, we were in a strange dilemma: McKay had to leave in 10 minutes to catch a plane and I was suddenly in labor. We knew he wouldn't be able to stay for the whole thing and didn't know what to do. I knelt over the towels and felt the baby move down and felt myself stretching. Then I woke up. Pretty exciting. I remember not having any pain as the baby moved down and I had some contractions. The only thing I really felt was the stretching, but that didn't hurt.

I'm feeling great, the baby's moving a lot. It's uncomfortable to sit for long periods of time (like at church) but that's the worst of it all. A couple of months ago, I felt like this baby would come early- like mid/end February. Now that it's almost mid February, I feel like it's going to be another 2 months, which I don't mind. Pregnancy isn't that bad. I can do this for a while longer.

So that's our update. This Saturday we're planning on getting maternity pictures done- we just need to hear back from the photographer about a time.

Sunday, February 10, 2008

I have to do what?

So every day at work, I take the elevator up and down transporting 30 laptops on a cart. I've read the operator's instructions many many times. This one always gets me:

That's right:

It's a good thing I'm not a firefighter.

Wednesday, February 06, 2008

Ash Wednesday

I feel like I should give something up for Lent, but I can't think of anything to give up. Oh well.

Today I went to a Paraeducator's Conference instead of work, which was a nice break. Yesterday at work, the kids were off the wall and I was always on my feet, so I needed this. But the conference was pretty boring- I didn't care too much to learn anything because I figure I'll be quitting my job in a month, and most of it was directed to special education paras, of which I am not. I'm just a technology person.

I knit during the conference and finished another baby monkey sock and started another. I told a lady I'm planning on selling them, and she was interested, but I couldn't find her later. How much would the socks go for? I don't know.

I really just want to sleep, but it's only 7. McKay's doing homework, the dishes need doing and I'm just sitting here tired. And my belly has decided that it doesn't like anything pressing against it- kitchen countertops (hence I'm not doing the dishes), McKay's hugs, not even my elastic maternity waistlines. So I'm pants-less for the moment. I guess that means I could go to bed now, huh?

I really want to get the etsy shop up and since I finished that sock, all I really need to do is take some pretty pictures and post them- the problem is winter is just not a good time for natural light.

Speaking of pictures, we're getting maternity pictures done on Feb 16. I'm excited for that! Hooray!

So that was somewhat random. Back to work regularly tomorrow!

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

Another survey

So I stole this from Alisa's blog.

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? No. I wish I was, though, which is why I plan on naming each of my kids after someone.

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? Saturday. I had the most emotional weekend of my entire pregnancy.

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? I've always hated the cursive "H" which means I loathe my own signature, but it is something that I've gotten used to. seeing my own handwriting is almost comforting, something I recognize.

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? The only lunch meat I ever really eat is ham.

5. Do you have any kids? Not yet.

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? Sure. I'm pretty darn fun, don't you think?

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM ALOT? Yes. Yes. I do. I should probably tone it down occasionally. I've scared a few home teachers in my day.

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS ? Yes I do. I have all my original organs.

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? Sure, why not?

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? Raisin Bran. It was my dad's cereal and we weren't allowed to have any, so it's kind of coveted.

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? Yes, always. My dad was a stickler about that.

12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG? In what sense? I could probably use some weight training.



15. RED OR PINK? whichever is brighter at the moment.

16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? Procrastination, though not being in school hides that flaw pretty well. Can't procrastinate without deadlines!

17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? My grandpa. That's why, if we have a boy, we're naming him after him.

18. What's your favorite painting? Der Kuss by Gustav Klimmt

19. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? An ice cream bar that our neighbors gave me.

20. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? McKay's sniffles and my sniffles. It's actually pretty quiet right now.

21. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? Cerulean. I think it's the best crayon color.


23. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? McKay. He had to pick me up from work today.

24. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU? I stole it off Alisa's site and I like her.

25. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH? Diving is fun.

26. HAIR COLOR? Blond.

27. EYE COLOR? Blue

28. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? Only on Sundays. I'm too lazy to wear them to work.

29. FAVORITE FOOD? Cake. And strawberries. And watermelon. And stuffed mushrooms.

30. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? I'm just not a fan of movies. I like thinking movies.

31. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? Bourne Ultimatum


34. SUMMER OR WINTER? whichever. Not picky

35. HUGS OR KISSES? Hugs Hugs Hugs. It's McKay's fault I'm not so much a kisser anymore (not that he's a bad kisser or anything)

36. FAVORITE DESSERT? Ice cream and cake. Or ice cream cake.

37. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? The Ultimate Peanuts: 1957-1958.

38 - 40. Didn't exist. Not very interesting numbers anyway.

41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON T.V. LAST NIGHT? The Superbowl Commercials.



44 isn't a very interesting number either.

45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT? I can wiggle my ears ONE AT A TIME. Everyone can do both at once, but boy, you're special when you can do it one at a time. I can also toss a 6 foot pole in the air, let it spin 3 times and catch it and still look pretty doing it. I'm also good at googling. I can google and find ANYTHING.


Monday, February 04, 2008

To the pregnancy gods:

It'd be really nice if I started nesting now!

My house is a mess and a little burst of nesting energy would do it some good. I've even pretended to nest, thinking it might bring on the nesting urge (like pretending to be happy can sometimes help you become happy). Last night, we made lasagna for dinner. I doubled the recipe, and since it was such a large recipe, I made up 2 extra lasagnas to freeze. I figure it's February and I've got 5 weeks left. If I prepare 2 frozen meals a week, by the time we have the baby, we could feed ourselves for a little while without a lot of preparation.

But the entire time we were making the lasagna, I was thinking, "What am I thinking? This is so dumb! Why am I making extra food? Look at the cost of all this: extra noodles, ricotta, etc!"

I was definitely NOT nesting and it was hard to try to. McKay thought it was a great idea to make up extra meals now. Oh well.