I wrote this on Monday, so when I say "yesterday" I mean "last Sunday." I didn't want to post this too soon after the Pride post because I wanted it to get some time at the top of my blog. Also, as you can tell, this is a long spiel about how life has been. Nothing too interesting, I totally understand if you skip it all, it was just nice to write it all out.
Before the life update, I wanted to share a couple more links about the Pride parade yesterday. Monya Baker blogged about the parade for Affirmation and included a picture of my awesome sign (I'd be more humble, except it was a pride parade. And that sign was full of win- so full of win that it made #27 in this list.) Tresa blogged her experience as well. And Laurie at Doves and Serpents. And Joanna Brooks did an overview of the many Pride parades that saw Mormon contingents this weekend.
This has been quite the couple of months. Some time in May I got hit with depression really bad. I stopped working out because when I did, I ended up either very cranky or napping most of the afternoon. I was trying to conserve energy, but I still ended up taking my fair share of naps. And the kids saw lots of TV. Monster's Inc. is the favorite at the moment. That and a really cheesy Netflix special on monster trucks. Margaret's opinion on monster trucks: "I want to watch monster trucks because they CRUSH CARS!!"
It was really classic depression: fatigue, lack of desire to do things I normally love (aka knit or blog), and craving sugar and wanting to just disappear in general. We all go through ups and downs, but once it hit 2 weeks straight, my brain told me, "Hey- this is when you tell new moms to get help: when it hits 2 weeks of every day, maybe you should do something about this." And of course, I didn't. I decided to "wait it out" and see if it'd just pick itself up on its own. Because you know, depression will magically cure itself.
In the midst of this, in May, I was talking to a good friend of mine about the upcoming summer. I haven't blogged about it, but June included a Disneyland trip and the Brave Wrap party in addition to the Pride parade. The trip to Disneyland was fun and we got to go to the new Cars Land before everyone else and without all the crowds. If you go to Cars Land, go at 8pm and watch them turn on the neons. And the race car ride is totally worth the wait- at least our wait, which was 1 hour for McKay and 10 minutes for me (rider swap!). I heard the wait was 5 hours on the day Cars Land opened to the public! Eek.
And the Brave Wrap party was fun, we did archery and played shinty and heard pipe bands, drummers, and saw dancers and weapons demonstrations. And we saw Brave in a specially made outdoor theater. And McKay joined the Pixar singers and was a part of the entertainment for the night (which got us reserved seats for the show- yay!) Sorry no pics at all for that. I took lots, but we aren't supposed to share them on social network sites, and I'm assuming public blogs fall under that description. McKay wore a kilt and I wore a dress I sewed myself. Fun times.
The kids got to see Brave the following week and Isaac wore his kilt to it. I think we're going to cosplay every show here on out. Monsters University will be SO MUCH FUN to cosplay. I'll have a real reason to buy fun fur yarn (you knitters are cringing, I know).
So back to me talking to my friend: the summer was looking overwhelming: we had/still have trips, I'm taking a class, and I was considering making a rather drastic decision in a mental state that was not really good at all. She listened like the lovely person she is- a very peaceful person. Then I mentioned Mormons for Marriage Equality and the Pride parade as an option for something else on my plate.
She responded, "That's so sweet."
"Yes, it is."
"You should do it. You love those kind of things."
She was right. She's remarked before that I'm a marcher/protester/holding a sign-er and she's not, but we have a lot of the same passions and work for similar causes. It takes all kinds. And when she said I should go to Pride, I knew she was right. It was exactly my element and I loved every minute.
Luckily, I was released from my nursery calling in this time frame. We were informed Memorial Day weekend that we'd be released the next week (while we were at Disneyland, in fact). That surprised me because my year wouldn't be up until July, but I'm not one to argue with a release. I'm good at nursery, but as I've mentioned before, I hate babysitting. I was cranky every Sunday when we got home from church- McKay even pointed it out at the end there that even when I wasn't going through this depression, it hit every Sunday. The bishopric member who released me also marched in the parade yesterday and I made a point to thank him for the release so I could go to Pride without finding a substitute for my calling. He laughed and joked that of course they plan callings and releases around the Pride parade!
So about that depression magically going away: about a week and a half ago, things started looking up. I even did some dishes (amazing!). I was a little suspicious that it was getting better, so I waited a few days before going back to working out- and I went a few times last week. A month off put me extremely out of shape- more than I thought it woud.
I didn't work out today because when I got up, I couldn't walk on my ankle (old injury from my teens, never healed). I wore my ankle brace at Pride, but I guess it wasn't enough. I'll go out tomorrow, though.
I've been trying to keep a normal routine for the kids: going to the park multiple times a week, a couple swimming trips, and even to Fairyland once and yesterday we went to Tilden Farm after Pride. Today was my day for doing "ALL THE THINGS!" but they haven't been done. House is still a mess, although I did clean the toilets and some of the dishes in the sink. Mid-afternoon I Facetimed McKay at work at told him how nothing was happening and how I spent the day watching videos of other people being awesome on the Internet and I was depressed at how I hadn't done anything all day. McKay was a dear and sent me a mathematical equations that draws a heart when you graph it and then said he'd send me a link that would make me feel better. I went to my computer to find a link to the Pride parade. I asked him about it and he said, "It's a video of you being awesome on the Internet." Aww.... That man is the best. Also, click on those videos. They might make you feel like you're not being awesome, but they are cool.
So that was longwinded.
Go on about your days. Eventually I'll pick up the energy to knit again. Maybe this week? We're going to the county fair on Wednesday to find out if I won anything for my parasol. Or I might just play video games like I have been for the past many weeks. I didn't have the concentration to knit, but I could play Zelda, so all was not lost.